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When You Just Want To Be A Part Of

I do not take credit for this picture

We all long to be a part of something or someone. Being looked as at equal fills the heart. To be part of hobbies, games, stories, conversions, helps everyone feel a part of something. We have area’s that we love more than others. We turn to others to help push through the area’s we don’t like. Fitting in can be very hard for some, and for other’s, it comes naturally. When things are harder on others, feeling natural is 100 percent harder for them. The more that people work at trying to fit in will only make them push farther away. I’ve seen this happened, when? I’ve done this, I’ve worked hard at being a part of something and only find that I push myself away. I don’t like to play the status game. The status game is belittling.
The world has created this. Either your shoe fits the world. Sorry about your luck if it doesn’t. You’ll be placed in the box and shoved to the back of the closet. Out of sight out of mind as I have heard it.
It’s hard to sit back and watch this happened to so many others in the world and families. You to speak out, but you also don’t want to be that shoe in the back of the closet. Just like the tongue on our shoe that has been laced down into place, our tongues must be done the same in our mouths. We have to watch what we say, when we say it and how we say it. Again I learn this when I was much younger. I have carried this through my whole life and continue to do so today.
I’ve been trying to sort feelings and words out. I’ve found it’s like fighting a wind chime that is tangled together into knots. Untangling these words wear me out. I feel like that wind chime in the wind being beat around and bounced off one another, beaten and bruised. I continue to work at untangling the words.

But what does the Bible say:


Ecclesiastes 12:11-14
A wise teacher’s words spur students to action and emphasize important truth. The collected saying of the wise are like guidance from a shepherd. But, my child, be warned: There is no end of opinions ready to be expressed. Studying them can go on forever and become very exhausting! Here is my final conclusion: Fear God and obey his commands, for this is the duty of every person. God will judge us for everything we do, including every secret thing, whether good or bad.
We all struggle with words, relationships, groups, activities, being a part of, but it’s easier for some and harder for others.

Proverbs 10:17
People who accept correction are on the pathway to life, but those who ignore it will lead others astray.

Proverbs 10:32
The godly speak words that are helpful, but the wicked speak only what is corrupt.

Why do we feel cheated when we aren’t included? Why do we fill our emptiness with more emptiness? Why do we want to be a part? Is it because we’ve felt this all our lives? Is it that we don’t trust, or don’t know where we fit in? Or is it that we aren’t excepted, or welcome to be a part? Is that we not trusted? Or are we looked as not worthy?

Proverbs 11:1
The Lord hates cheating, but he delights in honesty.

Proverbs 11: 12-13
It is foolish to belittle a neighbor: a person with good sense remains silent.
A gossip goes around revealing secrets, but those who are trustworthy can keep a confidence.

1 John 3: 11
This is the message we have heard from the beginning: We should love one another.

I’ve been struggling with words for the last few months. I have some I want to speak and some I’d rather hold inside.

Resources:

https://www.tyndale.com/p/niv-life-application-study-bible-second-edition/9781414359755

For the picture

https://www.lds.org/youth/article/idea-list-including-everyone?lang=eng

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The Darkened Shadow Left Behind

A shadow doesn’t always follow behind us or beside us. We tend to run from shadows that are behind us that seem to be chasing us. Our silhouettes are the beautiful drawings of our shadows. We tend to stay in place and not move. When our shadow is in front of us, we give all our attention and focus on that shadow, forgetting about what was beside us or what was behind us. Shadows are now left to find their way back into the focus of the eye. Our eyes turn to worry, scared, wondering, darkened, just like the shadow we were running from but yet sitting still, the shadow in front of us has now replaced with light. Our minds focus on what’s in front of us and letting everything around us to fall, not knowing what is taking place. Our dark shadows run towards the light, but yet still left in the darkness.
Shadows have personalities just like we do. Happy, joyful, silly, sad, mad and lost. Happy, joyful and silly shadows can be washed in with the left behind shadows. Our bright shadows are a lot like our Happy = full of, joyful = filled, silly = bubbly. Lost shadows follow those who have been forgotten or replaced. Our dark shadows are a lot like our brokenness, loneliness, forgotten, replaced. Brokenness = empty, loneliness = without, forgotten = left behind, replaced = new.
We let our minds take control over what we want to see. Darkness can be seen by the broken we see the spaces, the gaps, the set-aside, unspoken too. Spaces will no longer be empty. For the gap’s they will no longer be apart. Being included will no longer be set aside. The spoken will speak to the unspoken. No one wants to be any of the darkened shadows we all want to be the part of the light. Darkness cried out to the light to be seen. Just like in the bible Matthew 27:45-46 which says:
“At noon, darkness fell across the whole land until three o’clock, Jesus called out with a lough voice, “Eli, Eli, Lema sabachthani?” which means, “My God, my God, why have you forsake me?” Darkness has called out to the light, and is still forgotten.
Darkness wants to be valued in the bible found in Luke 12:6-7
“What is the price of five sparrow? A couple of pennies? Yet God does not forget a single one of them. And the very hairs on your head are all numbered. So don’t be afraid: you are more valuable to him than a whole flock of sparrows.
Light is to shine through the darkness like the bible:
John 1: 5
“The light shines through the darkness, and the darkness can never be extinguish it.”
I truly believe this, but I feel that some will forget the darkness, that need the light.
What I’m trying to say is just this: Don’t forget about the darkened shadows behind you or beside you. Don’t forget they too are there wanting to feel the holiness, the warmth, the love and to be included. The LIGHT is to include, and push away,

Resourches:

https://www.biblestudytools.com/matthew/passage/?q=matthew+27:45-46

https://www.biblestudytools.com/luke/passage/?q=luke+12:6-7

https://www.biblestudytools.com/john/1-5.html

I used this website for the picture used in the post. I only added the words. https://paperpull.com