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Just When The Path’s Part

We all have sat and ponder will the paths cross or part? We can sit and think about this for hours on end. Waste our whole day away, maybe the weekend too. But the real question is which path will we take? We will choose the path that crosses or the other path that goes its own direction? Here is another question to ponder; the path that crosses is that the path God wants you to take or is the path that goes its own direction that God wants you to take? Ponder that!!!

My paths have been rocking and steep, not knowing which path I should take. I questioned and still question which path to take. Do I go with the crossed path or the path that went off on its own? So let me share a thought. The path that crosses you are more than likely to see someone you know, the path that goes off on its own you are more than likely to see no one you know. So do you go with Path A The Crossed Path or B The Part by its self? Hmmm ponder ponder ponder path A or B. Now if I threw in a path that went nowhere would you take it? Maybe because we are comfortable, we know the routine, we know the tick of the clock, we know the people we are with, plus just maybe we change anything even a very small change it will wreck the place right?

My year has been a path of ups and downs, valleys, and mountains. Some I really enjoyed and loved and then the ones I didn’t like at all and I don’t even think I could love a little bit. I started a small business here at my home, which my husband and I live along with our five dogs (of all sizes) and one cat and two fish. You can’t have fish without a cat, can you? Hmm, ponder? Okay, okay let me get back on the path that I fell off of. My business started off slow and somewhat bumpy, then I had the rocket high of sales, then my rocket came crashing down. The business has come to snail pace, maybe even slower than that. But with all the ups and downs, with all the tears and giving up I pushed through. I’ve met people from all types of life and some I really connected with on a different level.

I didn’t realize that friends and people we meet are on all different levels. High ones those are the ones we look at like our “God” the lower friends are our “Hmm they’re my friend today but I lose them it’s no big deal, we can replace them. You know we have all thought and felt this also. Hard to swallow I know, because I’ve done it too. With my business, I have costumers who purchase almost all the time, then I have those costumers who purchase here and there, the ones where I think why aren’t you buying more?? Why?? Why?? Why?? I need your business I need your reviews, I need thoughts, I need your eyes to draw in new eyes, I need, I need, I need. I can go on and on about what I need.
But here’s the real truth I don’t NEED anything, nope nothing, not a thing…..(you’re wondering 🤔 why doesn’t she need anything if she wants her business to grow?). Here’s why I have to work at getting those new eyes myself, not waiting on others to help me or do it for me. I have to learn to do it myself. Sure it’s great that my customers want to help, but I have to learn some on my own. Like taking the crossed path or the path that went in its own direction.

I chose to take a path that I knew I could be somebody, I could make a little extra pocket money, “fun money” as I call it. Well, that fun money because more of a have to have and I want rather than what I needed. What I mean is, my wants were way bigger than my needs. I had let my paths going every which way, crossed, circling, passing one another, bumping into each other, and then falling off into their own paths, lost.
That’s is lost is the word “LOST”. I was lost in what was really going on, and which path was I to take? Heck, by this time I was lost myself, do I take A or B or Neither? As my business has come to almost as a feather falling to the ground slow I have to decide where do I go from here. Yes, The PATH again.

I was thinking now what do I do, where do I go from here, I’ve made good friends through my business and by now they are more than just “that Friend” the one you can replace. I can’t replace these people they’ve seen me at my worse and they’ve seen me at my highest, rocking it. The breaking point is coming, but when? I better get a hardness because it’s about to get real any day now. I began reading again and trying to sort things out, yep that path again, right here in front of me.
I came across the book “Crash the Chatterbox” by Steven Furtick, you must read!! What is the book about you’re going to asking, just that “THE CHATTER” we hear in our own head? What we can, what we can’t, what we are afraid, what doesn’t scare us, what do we look the way we do, why don’t people like me, why why why why……… The Wrecked path.
I had shared with my customers I was reading this book. No sooner than I had shown the book cover they were in for the long haul. They wanted to join me in reading this BIBLE Study. I was shocked you want to read this with me? Great, you will need to order your book and the study guide. (I shared the link which I will in the notes below).

BUT, what I wasn’t ready for was, my path was going cross with people I knew. What was this path going to be like? Then the big question came:
Who will lead this Bible Study, not me I have no clue about the bible, zero, nothing, lost, confused, and oh is that what Jesus said? Hmm didn’t know that. Jesus was saying a whole heck of a lot but I wasn’t listening like normal always in my own thoughts and head “Chatter”. I was going to learn real fast how my path was going to change.

God, used me so many years ago in a school where I was a teachers aide working with children who needed that little extra support, you know, “you got this, you can do this, I know you can, don’t give up, we’ll find another way for you to learn it.” If that meant I sat up all hours of the nights coming up with my own plans to help my student grow in learning or teaching myself sign language, most of all so their confidence would go within themselves. Which hmm, brain fart just now, Jesus was working on my confidences then also.

I believe lived I couldn’t lead this Bible Study because I know nothing about the bible. The “Chatter” continued to use the words, I can’t, I don’t know, I’m scared, I’m stupid, Why me, Can’t you pick someone better, Nope I’m not doing, while I’m stomping my foot, (shhh like my sister in law and daughter do when they want something heard, God loves them). Just as I had told myself, well I guess someone in the group of friends would be the leader, that’s great off the hook. Not so easy!! Darn it!!!

One night during one of my jewelry business sales, which I was doing my JOB running 🏃‍♀️my business, one of my customers now friends says why do you lead the study. I started cracking up and thinking are they kidding me? NOPE, they’re, not at all. It hits me, that yep it’s me that GOD picked to lead this study. My path had taken a whole different direction, the path I didn’t want to take or even try to understand.

But here I am today, leading this study, of 8 ladies including myself and loving it. My life’s paths have taken me on so many journeys, of emotions, lost, hurt, angry, confused, wanting to be loved, wanting to be wanted, wanting to just be someone. My paths in my life have been harsh at times, and smooth as butter others. I’d like the smooth as butter much better, but God wants us to trust him, to listen to him, to hear the truth in his voice, to shut the “Chatter” off, more like put a cork in it.
Don’t fall for the insecurity the enemy wants us to fall for, but what we need to know is GOD SAYS I AM, this is right out of the book: “I am His masterpiece, I am His workmanship, I am established, I am sealed with His promise, and I am REDEEMED!”

The “Chatter” works great wonders if we let it, sometimes we don’t even know the “Chatter” is doing its best work on us, until it’s too late, when we have taken the wrong PATH. The Path the “CHATTER” created the one that we believe so much is true when zero of it is true. God, created me and you, He had a plan/path for us before we were born, He knew the paths we would take before we took them good or bad. Because He CREATED us to be strong, to be his light in other people’s lives when they are lost and on the wrong path.

So I’ve decided my business path is now ready to go on its own path, and I’m going to take the cross path, The Cross Path that leads me to the people I know, to the people I don’t know, to the unknown period, because I have to let the “Chatter” go and Listen to GOD’s CHATTER the truth the Cross where Jesus is.

Sorry if you’re dizzy by now…..But it was well worth me writing this either in order or out of oder it caught you attention, don’t let the “Chatter” tell you differently


Wife of 30 years to my high school sweetheart Jon. Mother of 2 adult children, grandmother of 2 granddaughters. Pet lover of 6 dogs, 2 fish and 1 cat. I love genealogy and learning more about my ancestries. I like paying it forward through genealogy also. In enjoy crafts, reading, shopping, antiques and much more.

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